Depression

I make assumptions,
But i feel like maybe i am the blame,
I got scars that last forever to remember the pain,
When my homie passed away i felt like doing the same,
Do u try to crack a smile through the darkest of days,
Do u know what growin up without a father was like,
Do u suffer from depression sick of livin a lie,
I have regrets and i wish that i could simply forget,
Theres gotta be a better option i dont wanna be dead,
Cus in my head,
I cant seem to find the positive thinkin,
Im pushin everyone thats closed to me away and im sinkin,
To the bottom will i ever find the strength that i
Need, will i make my momma happy will i conquer this dream,
Cus if i dont then atleast i can say that i tried,
I spent alot of lonely nights where i whimpered and cried,
Mental illness aint a joke it will eat u alive,
U could lose everything u love in
The blink of an eye, and now im sayin