Love

Right back at it falling in the same patterns
A bad temper drowning in my old habits
When it comes to love it seems that we are both blinded
Used to being treated badly c’mon smack me
I love the way it feels you should come attack me
Tell me that I’m wrong its another sad scene
Waiting for the day that I might be happy
But if I stay with you that will never happen
Love is a curse and love is an addiction
Love is what you make it I don’t ever seem to listen
I’m a liar everyday I have the balls to say it
I got a split personality two sides are different
Here’s another damn fight I can never seem to win
When we both collide its a crazy whirlwind
I grew too attached yeah I guess it’s my fault
I fell so hard like I hit the asphalt
It’s toxic, abusive, its always a nuisance
Enough with the trauma there is no conclusion
I’m only human my heart is bruising
I act like I’m fine but inside I am losing
Yeah… I just wanna know if you think of me?
All the time that we spent now it’s history
You were my lover and my best friend
Now you’re nothing but an ex that I write with my pen
Alone in my mind
Alone all the time
Alone waiting for the last goodbye
We thought about a future even thought about a kid
When you left told myself I don’t even wanna live
All the stupid shit I did it can never be forgotten
I just need a moment gotta try to clear my conscious
I started drinking I thought that would ease the pain
These memories are gonna kill these other girls are lame
Things will never be the same I was looking for complex
Something I could build now its onto the next
Why does everything I touch seem to always fall apart?
Every girl I loved pierced a dagger through my heart
We were Romeo and Juliet I told you from the start
I can’t get you out my head lately I’ve been in the dark
I’m better on my own but I dwell on the past
I ain’t good with relationships I know that’s a fact
I wanna love again but I’m scared to go back
I wanna trust again but I’m scared it won’t last
My insecurities they won’t ever go away
Never needed you moving onto better things
Just remember my name when I blow up
What we could of had now there is no more us
I’m sorry that we didn’t work out
We were never meant to be
Now I’m sitting all alone in this house
Still numb and I’m still lonely
Alone in my mind
Alone all the time
Alone waiting for the last goodbye
Alone in my mind
Alone all the time
Alone waiting for the last goodbye