Misery

My regrets, same old story
Paid my dues, pain my glory
They tell me hang on please, don’t you worry
My mind wanders then my thoughts go blurry
Am I paranoid? Or a different breed?
Where did I go wrong? There is no retreat
Ive been on the haunt lately for a happy me
But this negativity I can’t escape! You see?
I need a change quick If I don’t I’m concerned
These people love me cause I put into words
What most can’t say so I’m here to disperse
They depending on me but I’m stuck in a curse
Numbers go up then my health goes down
Will I blow up? It don’t matter right now
Gotta find my peace better rise to my feet
If I don’t do that Ima click clack blow
Lets face the facts I just wanna be great
I wanna be real but I’m feeling so fake
I love my job but the price you pay
Is a burden soo deep that most can’t take
So I paint my face and I hide my mistakes
My anxiety is high so I lay wide awake
Got my headphones in think I need my fix
I wanna give in but I will not quit (Naah!)
Where do I go?
When I’m feeling so damn alone
I don’t know why I am so cold
What has gotten into me?
Can’t escape this misery
Can’t escape this misery
Where do I go?
When I’m feeling so damn alone
I don’t know why I am so cold
What has gotten into me?
Can’t escape this misery
Can’t escape this misery
Gotta leave a legacy when I grow up
I’m hoping they remember me when I kick dust
I’m trapped in a box still searching cause I’m lost
My emotions run dry so numb won’t stop
A lot has changed in a year I admit it
My life I used to live that is so forbidden
Now I make a little money as I plot these writtens
If the song don’t pop then the fans go missing
It’s lights, camera, action
You don’t see the backstage
Yelling ceasefire every time I have a bad day
Putting on a show like I’m starring in a matinee
Hate to be in crowds kinda funny how I want fame
I am overanalyzing every situation
And then I start debating if I’m gonna be the greatest
Where do I go?
When I’m feeling so damn alone
I don’t know why I am so cold
What has gotten into me?
Can’t escape this misery
Can’t escape this misery
Where do I go?
When I’m feeling so damn alone
I don’t know why I am so cold
What has gotten into me?
Can’t escape this misery
Can’t escape this misery
Another day exhausted yeah my soul is tired
I question who I am and if I should keep fighting?
I’m running outta options there is no redemption
No more excuses but I’m lacking of some inspiration
Where do I go?
When I’m feeling so damn alone
I don’t know why I am so cold
What has gotten into me?
Can’t escape this misery
Can’t escape this misery
Where do I go?
When I’m feeling so damn alone
I don’t know why I am so cold
What has gotten into me?
Can’t escape this misery
Can’t escape this misery