Weight of the World

Speaker cries out in pleasure times
Sweetened highs, heightened lies
Do or die I’m paralyzed
Staring in a pair of eyes lie in wait to find my paradise that hides deep
inside beneath all of her lies
Sink my teeth into necks of ghosts that I connect with
Stoner with the deadpan
Leave my dead by the curb for the trash man
Dead without a plan, cursed by all the lost and damned
In the places from my past that I’ve vacated
It’s so quiet when they write about all the wrongs that I’ve perpetrated
No replacement; days left with this nervousness I’ve placated
Not Alone when I spit my heart out with Sadvicious
Ripping plenty when I roll through all of my Guinness
Shadow looks so sad and thinks that I don’t understand it
But we’ve got a lot in common in the way we both will Perish
I need a hand but I’ve got a handle, just as able to drown fables in my path
that I’ve created with my mental
Weight of the World on my shoulder just like Atlas
Shrug it off just so I can get to take another hit
Splatter patterns spatter matter on the canvas just like Dexter
Maybe I’m more fucked up than you thought?
Faces of death that you just faced and wept
Talking to myself because I’ve got nobody else
Stepped through circles of hell like I’m meant to
But dulled fangs still sink into my skin too
Lies I tell keep me up at night
Nothing to lose, got nothing to lose now
Tried so hard to make things right
Weight of the world got me feeling so low
Weight of the world got me feeling solo
Disorders that bordered the normalcy of life
Live like Jack and sally
Probably more like Jack and Coke
Visions of decisions I never thought I’d have to make
Is memory the key? Or the key to more empty mistakes
Hate the fear the brought me here
Fucked up too much these last few years
Bathed in all the tears from every single night terror
Seeing all the signs I should’ve noticed from the start
These are my last words, please don’t take them to heart
I tried to pray to god but the sky was feeling empty
And I never even thought to ask how to cut you gently
Every breath so close to death, measure my apparent dread
Never been known to apologize for what I’ve said
The rabbit hole ran way too deep and now I’m screaming to be saved
Like someone gives a fuck but I don’t know if I can be the same
I’m probably just another allegory to be told
To the person who takes over the position that I hold
I wanna know that you’ll keep it secret, keep it safe
I poisoned your intentions like I lived at fucking Heaven’s gate
Stranger in a strange land damaged from the games man
Planning to retire by playing a little hangman
Hunter turned to hunted but the hunter didn’t like it
So he found another vice to numb away his conscience
Demon’s in my head, I’ve got demons in my bed
And the secrets that they’ve kept make me more alive than dead
Chased my tail to find another femme fatale
Known to associates with one too many belles of hell
Cameras in your face I guess we’re all big brother now
So document every single lie I’ve told and smiled
Another day, another drink to wash away my filth and shame
I’ll search for inner comfort by passing on all the blame
Please forget about me if I ever fall and drown
I’ve never been good with goodbyes anyhow