don't save me

Waking up on a Saturday
Sheets fallen off and you’ve gone away
The white starts crumbling
My brain keeps mumbling
Don’t wanna hear
That same shit again
Now this pain plagues both ways
Won’t mind if you walk away
Leave me stuck in yesterday
But who’s to say
We both gotta be this way?
I’m pulling up in slick straight jackets
That’ll cover up my wrists
But you’re the best I ever had
And you say the same to me
Hard to believe
I write apologies to you
In the form of shitty poetry
With hopes that you’ll understand
Please understand
My head’s so fucked
I’m running out of luck
Keeping cool couldn’t be more hard
Feel I’m slipping further down
Another self destructive route
Can’t keep count
Of the things I wish I never said to you
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
It’s times like these where I’ll hide away
It’s times like these where I wanna say
Don’t fucking save me