nightlight

I looked everywhere for something that I should of found in myself
I’ve created my own life’s hell
I’m the sinner, I’m the saint
I’m the thought you hate to think
I’m so lost, I’m in a maze
Be better off inside a grave
Alpha/Omega, fuck thinking that shit
It don’t make it no better when I feel like shit
I just feel deader when I’m in the grips
Of a hand I reached out to when I need a lift
Cause if I need help, then I feel like I failed
I’m in debt to the things that I felt
Well oh well, I’m stuck here anyway
What’s the point of complaining when I know I’m gonna fade?
I thought you would save me from myself
But now you’re deaf to my crys for help
Baby where’d you go?
You left me so fucking alone
Hot inside my chest the night you left, I lost my breath girl
But I guess it’s best, I’m still a mess, you were my damn world
Such a shame that you didn’t tell the truth to me
I can’t feel the same for you if you don’t feel the same for me
Make a fool of me, I’ma make a fool of you
You can really rest in peace when I’m really done with you
What’s got into me? I think that’s got something to do
With how you just fucked with me when I never fucked with you
I should just calm down, I should just let go
But you still come 'round right when I get close
Then I just forget all the pain that you inflict
Then you say «It's a bad day» and ghost me again
Cycle repeats like clockwork
I just act like that I’m not hurt
Even right after I got hurt
Some of these girls are so nice
But none of them make me feel like her
Wish you were here on these cold nights
I swear all my songs are about her
She caught me when I fell
Without her I’m not that well
I’m not sure if I can tell
When I need to say farewell
Cause she don’t make me fine
But without her I would of died
I’m not sure if I will find
Anything like that no time
Why’d you have to lie when I asked you bout that guy?
I thought you were not that type, what a waste of fucking time
Want you out my life, hold up, scratch that, never mind
Can’t believe with what you’ve done my love for you is still alive