Sinking

As the veil permeates
I want to dive in but there’s hesitation
Something is holding me back from ascending
I’m tied to the womb and it’s pulling me under
I can feel the void begging me to
Cut the ties preventing my full submersion
But my heart betrays me in the
Grips of terror I am staring my death in the face and begging it to take me
Take me
I want to see what lies beyond the curtain
I want to know the man who’s
Pulling the strings so I can finally
Feel what it means to know myself
I’m sinking
Sinking deeper going under
As the boarder evaporates
As my breath is swallowed I accept my fate
See I don’t mind dying its eternal life that is so terrifying
If I’m breathing then I know I’m dreaming
Dreaming
I’ve been praying for an answer
Waiting for the mirror to
Show me something that will let me
Feel that it’s safe to be myself
I’m sinking deeper
I’ve been treading water for so long
I don’t think that I can
Keep my head above the water for much longer so
I’m sinking