Don't Wanna Be Here

Girl we could of been forever but its no the same
You used to be my alibi to take away the pain
Remember staying up late talking over things
Now every single fight I’m the one to blame
What is love? I’m stuck reminiscing
From memories we shared my mind truly wishing
I wish I could forget but I can’t cause I’m missing
Every part of you now this agony is hitting
Do I really hate you or maybe it is me?
I feel this demon taking over shit is killing me
I promised you I would change but its not the case
I know I cheated and I lied karma took its place
Life is too damn short to be miserable
Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to let her go
If it ain’t meant to be well at least you tried
And if I walked out the door I would wonder why
Sometimes I don’t wanna be here
It’s a living nightmare, I don’t wanna be scared
Looking at myself in the God damn mirror
Things will be alright, you just gotta say a prayer
Like whoa
What the hell you doing, man?
Better put that gun down, it is not the end
There will be brighter days, focus on the sun
Been a long damn journey, but I’m having fun
Uh but before was in a dark place
Cold nights from mistakes that made my heart break
I laid awake ask God for the strength
Then he showed me the way all it took was some faith
Yeah, look
Cause nothings ever really meant to last
You gotta find your own happiness that’s a fact
What’s a friend when they go and stab you in the back?
Why does everybody judge from a dreaded past?
You only got one life so don’t let it slide
Cause people leave us and don’t get a chance to say goodbye
I still miss you big homie know you in the sky
Looking down every time that I go spit a rhyme
I’ve succeeded what they said I couldn’t ever do
And if we go our separate ways I’ll still think of you
Girl you changed me for the better now I’m living proof
Without support that you have gave me swear I would be screwed
I’m gonna cherish every memory good or bad
Sometimes I think about the future what we could of had
But then I realized it all happened for a reason
It made me stronger than I was so I start believing
Sometimes I don’t wanna be here
It’s a living nightmare, I don’t wanna be scared
Looking at myself in the God damn mirror
Things will be alright, you just gotta say a prayer
Like whoa
What the hell you doing, man?
Better put that gun down, it is not the end
There will be brighter days, focus on the sun
Been a long damn journey, but I’m having fun