Can't Escape

I close my eyes
Burn and get so high
Can’t erase the past
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape
You’re my high
Kiss of death feels so right
You’re my greatest pain
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape, you
I met this blonde back in trade school, irony was transparent
This was trade school, mom traded you to your grandparents
So she could dance careless, anyway change the subject
I don’t wanna focus on her pain and suffering, can’t discuss it
Nah, too much respect to defame in public
We were only 17, but felt like both our ages doubled
A smile pretty as a pearl kept pure
But who declared World War Four on this girl next door?
God only knew what my blonde homie knew
Had a feeling, I ain’t wanna know the hard-lonely truth
So I kept it light, wasn’t trynna make her feel awkward
Was trynna take her heels off her… heh yeah
But knew better than to make a real offer
She’s encaged, still watch her
We on a whole another level, like I’ve known her forever
But I won’t ever let her know the full frontal mental, nah
I close my eyes
Burn and get so high
Can’t erase the past
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape
You’re my high
Kiss of death feels so right
You’re my greatest pain
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape, you
For each dream we barely recall, there’s various lost
It’s that prayer to God, that great healing savior had lost
Guess he didn’t want me to share love, just pain and exhaust
Just name it, the cost? I’d trade to have her lay in my arms
But that just ain’t in the cards, that ain’t fate in this case, but wait!
That face and that charm, ain’t heard her name in so long
And just like that, the one that got away
Somehow got a day, to saturate my thoughts and play
Twenty years later, the strength feels greater
Every event, I’d still date her, I’d still take her
I got to pull on her wrist
Her gravitational pull makes her impossible to resist
See a lot of chics are cool but not as cool as this miss
‘Bout as cool as Swiss miss, is needed for an Eskimo kiss
But I can’t pull my cool rap guy, big shot stuff
‘Cause she’s a big pop buff, ain’t into hip-hop much
I close my eyes
Burn and get so high
Can’t erase the past
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape
You’re my high
Kiss of death feels so right
You’re my greatest pain
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape, you
Sometimes I’m shy at first, a quiet nerd
Hard to keep myself together, quite a blur, uncertain of what might occur
Other times I’m invisible to the naked eye
When all I wanna, take’s a try to make her smile, not wave good bye
Shimmer of hope in the dark night’s winter advance
I don’t puss out, won’t give Tinder a chance
We could be friends or advance pass that friend zone
We can touch down, hut now in the end zone
Do it on the low or let friends know
Fluid from us both in that Benzo, eh that depends though
Next lifetime, rest in peace on our life
Let’s see if this time, destiny’s on our side
When I be all in my feels, and I’m wishing that she could be all in her heels
Following me, calling me up to chill, she has a part of my artery still
Reached out to shut her out, her hand clumsily bumps into mine
I’m a see if this one’s the time
I close my eyes
Burn and get so high
Can’t erase the past
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape
You’re my high
Kiss of death feels so right
But my greatest pain
Only see your face
Girl I can’t escape, you