Parts

Can’t carry it around with you
but the weight of some things is just unshakeable.
The effects that I feel are real and physical.
Now I try my best to avoid you.
I’ve got better things to think about.
But one look from you and it was yesterday.
The things that now go better seem to fall away.
Would if I could but I can’t do.
Every time I look at you
one memory comes through
and a fear that never goes away cause there’s a part of me that blames you.
No amount of time can change how this hangs on to me.
Can’t keep it far away from you.
Dodge until you can’t and learn to bury things.
Forgive and then forget is wishful thinking.
Live like it’s fine, were it up to you.
But every time I look at you
one memory comes through
and a fear that never goes away cause there’s a part of me that blames you.
No amount of time can change how this hangs on to me.
It should’ve been the best of us,
but we leave out other loves and simple honesty.
How can you ever know if you’re just maybe?
Arms length, the wrong way through.
Every time I look at you
one memory comes through
and a fear that never goes away cause there’s a part of me that blames you.
No amount of time can change how this hangs on to me.