Medication

Adderall to wake, Ambien to sleep
Citalopram and Xanax for anxiety
Wellbutrin as an aid to my sobriety
We know when it's not true, we know when it's not real
It's real if you can feel the rush of what you touch
It's real if you can touch the things that make you feel rush
Everything I thought, I thought I knew was true
Was built on lies I told myself when I was young
And so the darkness spoke with a persuasive tongue
At night I twist and turn, haunted by my dreams
Not dreams of things I've done, but things I didn’t do
The vision of the man I should have been with you
So the darkness spoke of silence and despair
A parched summer wind, a whisper in my ear
“Take my quiet breath up into the air”
I am sad even though I am on all the meds