Expectancy, Pt. 2 (Despair)

…And now I’m sinking in despair
That has put out the candle of my hopes.
Sometimes I want to believe in what I do.
Getting wiser than I was before
I accept the fate that tears my soul.
I see the prospect of empty life
It is a burden I carry on my shoulders.
It’s time to wake up, no more dreams.
Life gets so hard to live.
Where is all I used to believe?
Where is all I used to live for?
I try to find out what troubles me —
State of confusion, self deprecation.
Will I ever understand why I fell all empty?
It took so long to realize.
I’ve spent so many years in questioning why.
My expectations have faded fast,
I wither nailed to the wall of life.
Fading away with every day
I chase my dreams and choose my way.
Learning to live I make my first mistakes,
Learning to live I feel growing despair.
Everything I knew was wrong.
All my hopes are broken.
Life is nothing for me anymore.
I don’t know what I search for…
All my life I’ve been waiting
For the sign to bring.
It took so long to realize
That it was in vain…