Scars

I’m leaving, I gotta say peace
It’s almost too hard to release
All the family I’ve built here; it cuts deep
But remember that I’m leaving more than guilt here
Complicated dance and I’m two left shoes
Was just in my black tie with two step shoes
I’m bracing for the backlash — take a deep breath
But I know in my heart I gotta take these steps
And they won’t understand, I just have to take it
Smile when I see em, and I’m gon' have to fake it
It hurts when you leaving a church
And you can’t look back when you starting your search
And, and, and I know it’s not a building
But the way people treat you, you get caught up in the feeling
Picking up the pieces with the Scriptures
Talkin with my real friends, who don’t treat me like I’m different
Those relationships came with conditions
On every week attendance and surface level friendships
Truth is, man, you ain’t wanna leave
Your heart is torn up about it, you been tryna grieve
Your wife lookin at you, and you just tryna lead
Comfort zone is gone, and you just tryna breathe
I’m talkin like it’s you, and really bro it’s me
Been tryna work this out, man, it’s hard for you to see
All the bitterness I’m fighting, feel like I’m goin crazy
Attacks on my mind, never knew I was this angry
I knew my best, best efforts were broken
But I’m sick of people questioning my motives
Man, they told me buy in, so I bought a hundred shares
I pull out and now I’m getting judgmental stares
Yeah, I see the snares, and yeah I know I’m tripping
But He catch me when I fall, like
«Listen, you just follow orders, I’m ordering your footprints
Imma grant you courage; trust me, it’s a good gift
I saw all your efforts, you just keep praying
Just keep loving mercy, Imma send you ravens
Imma show you church, you gon see my Body
Ain’t nobody perfect, but I make em Godly
You can still love em, even from a distance
You won’t lose nothing, my grace is sufficient.»
I been tryna trust You
I been tryna trust You
So even if it’s just You
Your grace has always been sufficient