Secrets Kept, Secrets Lost

There’s a girl I love
And she cares for me
And this girl I love, I know all about her
Except for what she wants from me
And I know I do not need her
But I have to see her
It’s illogical
But it’s the way things seem to be
And I know
There are secrets between us
I’d rather die than tell
But I wonder if mine are safe as well
If she wants too much
So I’ll give too much
But I know that I’m no fool
And she can be so cruel sometimes
Or she can be the sweetest girl in the world
There’s a girl I love
And it feels brand new
After years apart, because we never wanted
To be told just what to do
And I know I can’t believe her
But I can’t deceive her
And there’s a million different things
To say about the ways I’ve been warned
There are secrets between us
I’d rather die than tell
But I wonder if mine are safe as well
If she learns too much
'Cause I’ll talk much
'Til she thinks that I’m uncool
'Cause she can be so cruel sometimes
Or she can be the sweetest girl in the world
And I’m sickened by the circles
I’ve turned to keep her near
She has no love besides
The one between her eyes
There’s a girl I loathe
And in deceit she’s clothed
And these deeds I do, it’s like they’re just expected
But she never gives, just takes
And I find I cannot help her
And I’ll find no shelter
In her one-way eyes
She cuts me up like I’m birthday cake
Still I know
There are secrets between us
I’d rather die than tell
But I wonder if mine are safe as well
If she’ll talk too much
'Cause she’ll drink too much
But I know her heart’s unwell
And she can be so cruel sometimes
Or she can be the sweetest girl in the world