Issues

I wanna wake up
I’ve been walking in my sleep too long
Wake up
I’m so sick of dreaming
I wanna slow down
Wanna be part of what is happening around me
Without breathing, without feeling
Without screaming
So I’m leaving
I’m consciously unconscious
Why am I filled with hate?
I like to blame my parents
I’m sure you do the same
Swallow the hurt
Spit out the jerk that’s too afraid
I turn the page
To a chapter that they thought was just a phase
But it consumed me
You’re right I am a failure
And when my life turns to shit
It won’t have anything to do with the fact
That it’s all you ever taught me how to do
So you can relax
Without feeling
Without breathing
Now I’m leaving
Turn the page
I’ve been hiding, drowning
Running, starving
I’ve been feeling nothing