Had It Made

I made a mistake, because I always had it made
because I did not appreciate the things you did
I’ve spend a lot of time on it, and I think I wanted just a lonely life
I can’t believe how long it took just to understand the extent of all the
things I wasn’t doing right
I wanna know, if I was ever happy at all?
because right now, I don’t know, I can’t remember
Now I’ve spent a lot of time on it
and I don’t want to lead a lonely life
I spent the time and still I don’t even understand
I wanna wake up in the morning and just feel alright
And I believe that it’s true, that I just blamed it all all on you
my only defense, I was so depressed, and man I was so dumb
My dreams came true, and I always thought that the parts that needed you
would be filled when all these things came true, I did
I was wrong
(OOOHHH)
and now I never wanted to live this long, without