Abomination

People talk, what’s next?
Most of the time it’s behind ya back
Ima live my life with no regrets
He who is without sin cast the first stone
You gon throw one? I didn’t think so
Broken heart, broken dreams
Broken life, broken wings
I stepped out, paid the price
Gone too deep, won’t think twice
Called me all out my name
Had no clue «What that mean?
What’s my name? Who am I?
How do I identify?»
Lying, crying, dying, buying
Everything I can’t confide in
Don’t feel whole, lost my drive
Trying to just survive
Now I embrace what you hate
I found love, ain’t it great?
I’m gone keep on my work
You can talk, I’ll just serve
You say I’m unworthy
I’m not status quo
I am an affront to creation
You try to control me
But you’ll never know
Judging by your own limitations
And try as you might I’m a mystery
We both have our points and we disagree
But if you can’t grow
Well then you’ll have to get on
Cus I won’t be your abomination
Take it from me
How you know what I feel?
Even though
I been through, back and forth
I don’t know, am I sure?
Smile big, play the part
Inside I fell apart
Do I put me on display
Already know what they gon say
«He's a sinner, he’s a demon
In a struggle, he needs Jesus
Get the oil, gather saints!
Hold him down, must restrain!
Send him to therapy
Chain him up, heresy
If he fails then that’s tough
Guess he don’t want it bad enough» (What? Listen…)
I can’t be sorry for
Who I am when you’re late
Worried bout what I like
How I love, who I date
Disappointed, hurt your heart
Wait hurt your heart? I got scars
Healed myself from your wounds
Could care less if you approve…
And to the babies that look up to me for what I taught
Never be afraid to live in peace the way you ought
Don’t go looking ‘round the world for your self-affirmation
Took B’s advice threw some str8 deuces at the train station (and that’s why)
You say I’m unworthy
I’m not status quo
I am an affront to creation
You try to control me
But you’ll never know
Judging by your own limitations
And try as you might I’m a mystery
We both have our points and we disagree
But if you can’t grow
Well then you’ll have to get on
Cus I won’t be your abomination
No, I won’t be yo abomination
All that criticizing, that condemnation
All your frustrations won’t knock my concentration
I will never flop
So you might as well stop
So forget your conversation
So stereotypical
None of it is critical
Living life on a pedal stool, but who made you a general?
So judgmental
But if you were so mental
You would recognize and see all the things that I’ve been thru
Nah, I ain’t perfect and ain’t claiming to be
From the outside looking in, it ain’t plain to see
That I’ve been hurt a few times, words cut deep
Suffocation from the gossip makes it hard to breath
But Ima stand tall, no matter what they say
Got my eyes on the prize and they can’t take it way
You’ll never be getting the best of the me
What’s next for me
Is the fact that u will never get to me
No, you don’t wanna step in my shoes
Wanna pick and choose
What you’ll explain away and what you’ll accuse
Got my mind on the kids
And I’m not going nowhere
You tryna tell me all about
Wanna scream and shout
What’s a choice to be loved or to live in doubt?
You can call me misled
But I’m not going nowhere
And if you can’t grow
Then you can get gone (used to know you in another…)
You say I’m unworthy
I’m not status quo
I am an affront to creation
You try to control me
But you’ll never know
Judging by your own limitations
And try as you might I’m a mystery
We both have our points and we disagree
But if you can’t grow
Well then you’ll have to get on
Cus I won’t be your abomination
You say that I’m crazy
You think I’m confused
It’s all in my imagination
You try to control me
But you’ll always lose
No one buys your broad condemnation
And you’ll never break my identity
Yes, you must be stopped if you’re hurting me
So if you keep your views
Well then baby I refuse
No, I won’t be your abomination