State of Mind

My mind is explosive like I planted C4
I’m surrounded by darkness like bats in a layer
Mentally locking me inside of a prison
But my vision getting brighter cause I made it appear
They say that time heals everything it’s barely true
Cause if it was why am I still hurting from you?
My words are ammunition and I’m ready to shoot
Made a lot of fucking moves but still more to prove
Just be yourself man forget the critics
Possess a hype plan and mind your business
A fight to the finish til my soul diminish
Already in the game I was in the scrimmage
Choices I have made got me so depressed
I was drinking out the bottle til my eyes turn red
Smoke another swisha tryna ease my mental
It got me tripping paranoia like I seen the feds
Getting high all day cause the world is low
Procrastinate on the daily ain’t the way to go
An Apocalypse approaching I can sense it though
Social media’s a tool that will drain you slow
The good die young and the rich get richer
Rapper’s out here ghost writing claiming they spitters
You can tell me I should stop but I ain’t no quitter
Colder than a winter night cause my past so bitter
I’ll be feeling like a plane on the runway
About to take off celebrate like it’s my birthday
When this album drops you should buy it like it’s payday
Causing mayday I’ma do this shit my way
Hater’s gonna watch my every move like a steak out
Speaking to the people like I’m Martin Luther King now
If you want a feature you can hit me on a pay pal
Always bring the flame like I’m chilling at a campground, damn
Everybody wanna come around like they know me
But you don’t know a thing about me you are such a phony
You can say what you want but won’t bring me down
I’ve been hurt so many times I can’t feel it now
I hope you understand my state of mind
Spotlight’s on me and I know that it’s my time to shine
I’ve been out here on the grind working overtime
And I ain’t stopping til I get it that’s my state of mind
Karma come around for the one’s who deserve
Well I had my fair share I’ve been pushed to the limit
They talk about your business but it’s none of their concern
Give a fuck about a hater it’s survival of the fittest
These fake’s in disguise wanna act like my homie
Now they see me making moves got no time for a phony
Where the fuck were ya’ll when I was down and nobody
When the weather wasn’t sunny and I had no money
Had enough of fake friends and a dirty whore
A whole world out there that I’m trying to explore
Opportunity is knocking better answer the door
If you ain’t doing what you love only you to blame for
I sit tight and I crunch rhymes
A few beer just to get me through the tough times
I’ve been M.I.A. and I relapsed
But I’m sobered up now and I’m on track
I’m a sociopath like Norman Bates
I’ll cut you up like a surgeon while you wide awake
In the end we all doomed you cannot escape
And don’t run from your problems they will not erase
Embrace to change but don’t trust nobody
Running deep as an incision while I’m sipping on a 40
Bruce Lee with the Nun Chucks doper than a drug bust
Sticking to my motive I’ma be somebody
They’d be watching me like the police on the block
These new gen rapper’s are like sheep by the flock
My music therapeutic literally it’s all I got
And I ain’t never stopping til I reach the fucking top
I play my moves careful like a game of chess
No brakes full throttle can’t slow down now
My rhyme flow sharper than a bayonet
When I hit that stage spark a whole damn crowd
Everybody wanna come around like they know me
But you don’t know a thing about me you are such a phony
You can say what you want but won’t bring me down
I’ve been hurt so many times I can’t feel it now
I hope you understand my state of mind
Spotlight’s on me and I know that it’s my time to shine
I’ve been out here on the grind working overtime
And I ain’t stopping til I get it that’s my state of mind
Energy’s a monster my power is limitless
Forever I’ll be ill you should know that I’m infamous
Our world is an illusion filled with hatred and bitterness
Got me torn apart like I fractured a ligament
Your dreams are on the line better answer that call
Cause any moment you could lose it be regretting it all
Trying to find the strength to get back every time that I fall
Gotta constantly remind myself that this is my fault
They tell you that they love you but I see right through the lies
I’ma keep on chasing pavement cause this roads where I reside
I’ma probably die this way bury me up in the sky
Let my legacy live on I hope you get my state of mind
Everybody wanna come around like they know me
But you don’t know a thing about me you are such a phony
You can say what you want but won’t bring me down
I’ve been hurt so many times I can’t feel it now
I hope you understand my state of mind
Spotlight’s on me and I know that it’s my time to shine
I’ve been out here on the grind working overtime
And I ain’t stopping til I get it that’s my state of mind