Feel Safe

I keep chasing this high but I can’t seem to catch it
Hit a fork in the road, man I don’t ever listen
I keep exposing the truth, but live my life a lie
Behind these closed doors, they don’t see the war inside
Now momma getting older, my heart keeps growing colder
No sense of urgency but I been fighting like a soldier
I need some discipline, accept the fact that shit is over
Watching people falling like the leaves in mid-October
I’m a victim to my thoughts as a stable way
If I continue on like this I’ll fucking blow my brains
Have I gone insane? I’m losing all my patience
Stuck in traffic, I got anger issues, can’t contain 'em
You’ll project your insecurities onto the next
Put up a barrier which makes it hard to love again
Serve and protect, been a struggle tryna make amends
So outrageous what I’m saying as I lay in bed
These stress levels not healthy
There ain’t really much you could tell me
Lately can’t explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go where I feel safe
These stress levels not healthy
There ain’t really much that you could tell me
Lately can’t explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go where I feel safe
Plotting, scheming, and I execute another record
Not motivated mentally, I live inside a prison
Do numbers matter if your happiness ain’t in the question
My OCD has got me triggered, now I’m second-guessing
No chance I am complacent, that’s such a honest statement
I’m bringing value to the table, but forgot to mention
How I been smoking, try to cope but though it’s temporary
I need a permanent solution, not the cemetery
Why explain it, you don’t listen, maybe I’ma burn it
You say you there for me but you ain’t there when I am hurting
These walls are talking man, I swear to God that I can’t hear 'em
Nothing is appealing like it used to be, I’m tired of bleeding
Don’t want your sympathy, I don’t even want your help
Cut negativity, no I don’t got nobody else
I play the role so good that they don’t see the mask itself
Hate my reflection, that’s the reason that I live in hell
These stress levels not healthy
There ain’t really much you could tell me
Lately can’t explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go where I feel safe
These stress levels not healthy
There ain’t really much that you could tell me
Lately can’t explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go where I feel safe
Through the storm, moving forward, yes, I’m still standing
By the grace of God and willpower I’ve managed
Picking up the piece, I can never solve this puzzle
Without failure can’t succeed, no wonder why I struggle
Far from perfect but improving on a daily basis
Physically I’m here but spiritually I should awaken
Overstressing, overthinking, pray it will get better
One day I’ma win this war but until then I won’t surrender, yeah
These stress levels not healthy
There ain’t really much you could tell me
Lately can’t explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go where I feel safe
These stress levels not healthy
There ain’t really much that you could tell me
Lately can’t explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go where I feel safe
Oh-oh, eh-eh
Oh-oh-oh-oh, eh-eh-eh-eh