Bottle of Scotch

I was born when she kissed me, I died when she left me
I lived a few weeks while she loved me You like it?
What is it?
I want to put it in scripture, I don’t know quite where
I forgot the last time you ever showed me love
That’s the last time I ever felt a fucking buzz, damn
Well, besides the bottle of scotch
I keep it on my nightstand, I pour that shit on the rocks
And it’s like a nightmare as soon I unlock
And its like what do I care but I want this shit to stop
I’m searching for my happiness I’ll never retrieve
Burn degrees, all this shit will slowly murder me
Can’t compete, nothing means what you mean to me
When I stay behind the scenes, when I hide behind the seams
And you don’t know what I see in this world, what I perceive
And I wanna rest in peace
Don’t miss me when I’m deceased
I always feel the pain if I ain’t high or I ain’t fucking
Need a little bit of serotonin just to fucking function
I’m alone inside my thoughts with major alcohol consumption
Take trip inside my mind and that’s a journey of destruction
And I’d if I blow up from combustion, shit at least I’m feeling something
She stay on me like some suction, I ain’t using no seduction
(I ain’t using no seduction, and I know you tryna let me go)
And I always feel the pain if I ain’t rapping or ain’t writing
Honestly I lost my gratitude of happiness, excitement
I don’t give a fuck about your attitude, I’m stay staying vibrant
Make a scene and everybody laugh at you, I’m staying silent
Elevated got a higher altitude, I’m straight vibin'
And I could never lie to you, inside I’m dying
I forgot the last time you ever showed me love
That’s the last time I ever felt a fucking buzz, damn
Well, besides the bottle scotch
I keep it on my nightstand, I pour that shit on the rocks
And it’s like a nightmare as soon I unlock
And its like what do I care but I want this shit to stop (As soon as I unlock)