The Earth Will Swallow Me Whole

Am I supposed to feel okay?
I spent the day alone, this year on your birthday
‘Cause it’s been so long and I don’t feel any different
And the abyss, it haunts tonight
And I’m afraid I’m defined by it
It’s not going anywhere
Will I ever make peace with this?
As I’m waiting for the earth to swallow me up
I’m feeling older now
It’s been a long, lonely way down
As I’m hanging by a frayed thread of light, it burns
I’m sinking lower now
And I’m afraid that it won’t follow me down
(Won't follow me down)
But still, I ache for better days
Though I spend most of my nights awake
Staring at the ceiling
Tracing lines to find my way
To the light on the window pane
It reflects and lights the frame
And locks my pain away
So it can stay another day
In its hiding place, the only thing I can’t face
As I’m waiting for the earth to swallow me up
I’m feeling older now
It’s been a long, lonely way down
As I’m hanging by a frayed thread of light, it burns
I’m sinking lower now
And I’m afraid that it won’t follow me down
(Won't follow me down)
There’s comfort in the fact that we share a name
Like part of you’s with me in this worn-down state
But sometimes the thought can’t stop the ache
But sometimes, it can’t stop this