This Otherness

Was it always this way?
How could I not see it happen?
How could it catch up so ruthlessly
Quick and steady
When I’m not ready?
How come it’s taken so long?
I have no answers to sell you
How come the smiles have all turned into frowns
Unfeeling
Self revealing?
Bringing this otherness, opening the door
To some other place that I’ve not known before
Blurred 'round the edges, stripped to the core
The fantasy just can’t sustain it no more
Was it always this late?
Where did time take a shortcut?
Where are the tracks of the hours inbetween?
When life was waiting for us?
Stuck in this otherness that’s opened the door
To some other place that I’ve not known before
Thrown out of synch like some old acidhead
Awoken from dreams to find nightmares instead
The night is all around me
And dawn has never seemed so far away