Was

I’m just a shadow
A shadow of what I was
I wanna be better
Better than I ever was
I clock a different weight
And cut off half my hair
I don’t remember either happening
But I know that they’re there
Mmm
I wanna be better
Better than I ever was
The meds aren’t helping
As fast as I thought they would
Put me on prescriptions
Save me from myself
You tell me I need to smile more
But I don’t think that would help
I’m just a shadow
A shadow of what I was
And I’m trying
To make it out the woods
I’m just fighting myself
I’m lying to myself
I’m just fighting myself
I’m lying to myself
Do I sigh to myself?
Do I cry out for help
Even if I hate myself
I am stuck by myself
I’m just a shadow
A shadow of what I once was
And I’m not dying
But would I if I could?
When you ask me why I’m like this
I guess that my brain just got sick
When you ask me why unhappy
I can tell that you’re pissed at me
Tell me how to stop the noise
Cause I hate to dissapoint
So while I rip out my heart
I guess I’ll smile and play my part
I’m just a shadow
A shadow of what I once was
I wanna be better
Better than I ever was
Haha