Anxiety

Hold it in my heart
It’s beating like it’s coming through my chest
Panickin' again, I just can’t seem to catch my fuckin' breath
Count to 10 but nothin’s changin'
Thoughts are ragin' in my head
Every time I swear this is the last time I’ll get out of bed
But you said I was on my own
I’ve never felt quite so alone
But this anxiety inside of me
Keeps pushing me ahead
Medication, all I need
It’s just as bad as the disease
When I abide by my prescriptions
I keep wishin' I was dead
You are my hate
You follow me
My only strength
Why can’t you see?
You’re my best friend
My worst enemy
I can’t live without you
But with you, I can’t breathe
You’re breakin' up, I barely hear you through the static on your phone
I’ll be fine, I just need time to heal so please leave me alone
Panickin' again that anything you say might not be real
That you never loved me
You just loved the way I made you feel
But you said I was someone else
You hate the way I hate myself
But this anxiety inside of me, it keeps me up at night
You want me and I want more
I jump and wash up on the shore
Now I’ve chosen
I’m broken from my whole fucking life
You are my hate
You follow me
My only strength
Why can’t you see?
You’re my best friend
My worst enemy
I can’t live without you
But with you, I can’t breathe
And I can’t breathe
And I can’t breathe
You are my hate
And I can’t breathe
You follow me
And I can’t breathe
You are my hate
And I can’t breathe
You follow me
And I can’t breathe
(You are my hate)
Your god doesn’t love me
(And I can’t breathe)
Your god doesn’t love me
(You follow me)
Your god doesn’t love me
And I can’t breathe