fit for this life

I keep it cold, decisive my soul, my bloods gotta stay froze
I keep fucking up, I’ma end up alone, I ain’t fit for this life
Without a couple of vices, someone give me advice
It’s do or die, don’t think twice
I see the same faces everywhere I go
And fuck if I know, the difference between it all
She doesn’t love me when I’m feeling the pain
She fucking hates me for that, I fucking hate myself too
It’s a long hole, you can give it up if you want
I can’t blame you even if I wanted too
And honestly, I wanna believe that I’m better than that
But the truth is I can’t take this back
All these signs I told you
It’s no surprise you’re back to the old you, huh
And I fucking told you, I was never meant to be the one to love and hold you
And I can’t change now, I’m a fucking loner
Just a useless stupid, pissed off stoner
With the weight of the world on my shoulders
23, I feel so much older, the little things I can’t get over
Fucking hate myself, fucking hate these posers
With the killmyself attitude
Never felt sadness until they grew up
And found out they were powerless, fuck
Knew I was stuck since I was a kid
Never good enough to bring happiness
But I can be what you need, if you give me the chance
If you just let me breathe, if you give me some space
If you just let me grieve, I still don’t understand
How this could happen to me, yeah