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I don’t wanna try to love you
For the sake of my own self discovery
I am well aware
That would be cruel
I don’t wanna take advantage
Of the feelings you have for me
Especially not when I don’t know what it is I feel for you
I mean, I know that I lov being your friend
So much so it makes m question if I
Might want a little bit more
But I won’t turn you into an experiment
Just so I can be completely sure
So
I’m so sorry but I think I should go
It just wouldn’t be fair to you, you know
Do I like you, or do I just hate
Being alone?
I don’t wanna give you false hope
Or entertain something that’s never gonna come true
I would never try to lead you on
But I don’t wanna figure out who I am
Through figuring out if I like you
So I think it might be best if we just stopped
But I really love being your friend
And it’s selfish, but at the end of this
I hope that you’ll still let me be
Because even if you were a willing participant
If I experimented, I never want your heartache
To be because of me
So
I’m so sorry but I think I need to go
It isn’t fair to you that I don’t know
If I like you or if I just hate
Being alone
I’m not leaving cause I don’t care
I have to go because the idea of being in love with you makes me so scared
And I don’t know who I am anymore
But I know that I never even questioned it before I met
You
So
I’m so sorry that I have to go
You’d be a casualty in my curiosity, so
I think it’s best if we never know
If I like you or if I just hate
Being alone
And yet I’m alone