The Girl I Never Had

Let me tell you bout this girl I always wanted
Like always
But I was way too much of a bitch back then
To even say anything to her
Let me take you back…
I always heard your name
They was hypin
I didn’t think you was that bad
I had decided
Until I seen that ass
Walk by
I couldn’t hide it
The look on my face
You shoulda seen it
Shit was priceless
And at that moment
I knew that I was wrong
I knew that one day
I write about you in a song
I blew it back then
But thankfully the boy has grown
I wish I had your 10 digits
Right now in my phone
(damn)
I’m reminiscing bout the girl
I never had
She probably got man
Damn that is shit sad
Thinking bout my past
Wishing I could get it back
Only for second
I’m the first one to finish last
Or something like that
Some real smart shit
Poetic
Art shit
You was just
A smart kid
And there was me
Stupid on the team balling
Tried play in college
Got there
I was not picked
Fucking idiot
I know I am
Tryna win the race
Noticing how fucking slow I am
The turtle always
Beats the hare
What I was thinking
I think I got it wrong
Can’t believe what I was thinking
You probably think i’m brainless
Like the fate of Abe Lincoln
Tried to tread water
But my body stayed sinking
Shoulda tried harder
But her body too different
Got intimidated
When them hips started shifting
Hard in the paint
Blake Griffen
God just to think
If I hit it
I’d cheese for week
Like a Green Bay fitted
Sick of these cheap scape
Bitches
Wishing I had done my past different
Like
Like maybe I would I have you
Instead of tryna smash a bitch
In the bathroom
And constantly sad alone
In a bad mood
With all this empty space in here
My house looking like a castle
Looking for my queen to complete it
Your body like a wonderland
Damn that shit is scenic
If this was game of thrones
Well
You would be Khaleesi
You hotter than tomalleys
Oh my god I got a fever
We could be best friends
Pam and Gina
Damn
No bever
Ain’t no man in this land
Good enough for your hand
Me either
(damn)
But what if?
I could just cut it
Be Brad Pitt
Benjamin button
Never stop loving
You till the moon
Don’t shine in the heavens
All for a chick that I met when
I was seventeen
Made a fantasy
About
A life between
You and me
If I didn’t ruin it
Thinking in the truest sense
Crossed my mind
Like a crucifix
What if you was Lucifer
And I was fucking losing it
All delusions in my head
In my bed snoozing
Bitches in my mind on the daily
And this time it was you
Woke up and felt amazing
I think I needed saving
From this life slaving
Everyday making
A song till i’m famous
Or maybe
This song
Is all about my fucking life
And how you changed it
Cause lately
I been thinking back
On my decisions
Everything that made me
Just a man on a mission
From the girls that turned me down
To the girls that made me miss em
The girls that made me fuck em
And the girls that made me kiss em
But nothing else different
Than that girl that you was wishing
Quiet in the distance
Scared to say shit
So you missed it
Now you tryna rewind time
And fix it
Sometimes you wish you could just go back
And fix everything you fucked up
How you wish you woulda
Handled situations knowing how they turned out
But the fucked up thing is
This just leads you down a path
Of sadness and anger
Cause in real
There ain’t no time machine
But what if???