The Cliff

I’m on the edge
Of the cliff looking down
What if I jump?
Would I hit the ground?
Drown?
Die while i’m en route?
Thinking bout a wife
Kids now
Shit i’ll probably miss out
But
What I‘m missing?
My whole whole life
I been sitting in my room every night
Alone
Tryna write a song
I’m
Thinking they’ll probably like this one
Cause
God damn I like this one
My mind clouded
Til the lightning comes
Strike down like Tyson punch
Suicide squeeze like a bunt
Tight grip right round the gun
If I slip my life is done
Can’t wait for my time to come
Tryna think what’ll I become?
I heard suicide’s
Slightly fun
Down 10 pills all at once
Don’t smoke
But I light the blunt
Rope chokes
Now my eyes are shut
Imagine that was really me?
Cause I hate the fuckin powers
Like i’m mini me
Hating all the hours
That they giving me
Tryna blow my fucking job
Right to smithereens
Cause I do the same shit
Every fricking week
People get it handed to em
Like it’s trick or treat
Gotta hand it to em
Cause there life is bitter sweet
Gotta me thinking
Am I really free?
Killing me
Inside
Try
Not to
Lose my mind
But I
Still find myself
Struggling with life
Should find I some help?
Or should I kick the chair?
Leave behind the belt
Even millionaire’s
Leave behind the wealth
There’s some feelings there
But I don’t like the route
That we taking
So i’m scared
My life’s vacant
Don’t even know if there’s a god
Or a satan
When I die
Will I see my friends again?
Did they make it?
Or will it fade to black?
Nothing after that
Rough habitat
For us humans
Those the thoughts that consume us
Wish I was a kid still
But I grew up
Figured out
That the whole world’s screwed up
Can I go back to when I was a pre schooler?
First grade walking to school with dad
Didn’t understand how great of a life that I had
Now I just sit back and think about that
Think about the past
Glory days
Only 22
But i’m feeling 48
Young man
Old soul
Don’t coordinate
I mean i’m often gone
Rarely talk to mom
I got a dream
I’m tryna formulate
I’m sorry…
I think I’m losing my mind
Slowly losing my soul
Like where can I run to?
Like where do I go?
I’m feeling so trapped
I don’t think imma make it
I lost all my hope
And like I can’t fucking take it
I don’t think i’m coming home so soon
I don’t think i’m home to you