Surrender / Disaster Boy

I ain’t really wanna leave but I had to
I ain’t really mean to be in a bad mood
I ain’t never mean to be such a bad dude
But I know now I can never have you
It’s a blessing I’m breathing to this day
I been stressed and smoking in the rain
Looking past it love ends tragic
It ain’t magic
Eventually it fades
Shit hurts and I’ll never feel the same
I’m cursed and I got no one to blame
These thoughts are trapped inside my brain
This cash won’t never hear the pain
Ambition killed my innocence
Never thought twice
Even right here as I scribble this
On this long night
I see your shadow lurking even in the spotlight
My heart is cold and frozen don’t care if you die
Surrender yourself to the god of us too
Cause it’s haunting me heavy, it’s haunting you too
So surrender yourself to the god of us too
If you want me and love me then show me you do
Another emo song
Another emo song
I hurt myself again
I don’t deserve no friends
My heart it breaks and bends
Disaster boy till end
I hurt myself again
I don’t deserve no friends
My heart it breaks and bends
Disaster boy till end
Everybody wanna be like me
Except me cause you don’t accept me
I’m a misfit always feeling empty
Now you wish that you never met me
I won’t never be normal I don’t feel like you
I don’t fit in but you know I stay true
You think that I hate you but I hate me
I pull my blunt out [??} and smoking HD
You won’t save my soul
I’ll parish with the sinners
Deep down below right by the river
Leave me to bleed right after dinner
Taking shots and shots like for my liver
I hurt myself again
I don’t deserve no friends
My heart it breaks and bends
Disaster boy till end
I hurt myself again
I don’t deserve no friends
My heart it breaks and bends
Disaster boy till end