Dear Dad

Dear Dad, why’d you have to go so soon?
It feels like I never really got to know you
You lost track of your life when your pops passed
Tryna drink away your problems through a shot glass
I just hope that I don’t fall into the same path
I’ve had addictive personality since way back
It’s in our blood some times I really hate that
But we’re alike in other ways I wouldn’t change that
You loved work you put that over everything
You even put it and liquor over a wedding ring
They say you never know what you had 'til it’s gone
That’s why I’m writing you this song
I’ve been stressing and second guessing decisions
Learning lessons and growing up gaining wisdom
You’re out the picture this never was in my vision
You helped me buy my equipment
You shared my songs and you listened
When I was younger heard arguing in the kitchen
Moving around a lot houses always switching
As I got older began to see the addiction
Mom tried stay to calm couldn’t stick with it
I don’t blame her but sometimes I blame myself
Like there was someway or somehow I could of helped like damn
Maybe if I called the ambulance a little faster
We wouldn’t be in this disaster
Instead of staring at the blood on the walls like it’s plaster
But I guess it doesn’t matter
Grandma’s crying in the arms of the pastor
Not all stories get a happy ever after
Me and my brother stuck together that’s for life too
Mama found new love met a nice dude
Things sucked but I always had to fight thru
How’s the weather in heaven? Hope it’s a nice view
Nowadays everything ain’t the same
A lot of problems are bottled up in my brain
I never thought that I would have to feel this way
But I can’t help it, I’m breaking down every day
I don’t wanna get upset I don’t think I should regret
Holding on to what is left hope your happy looking down
I just wanna make u proud even tho your not around
I know you’ll always be there I know that you’ll always care
So I love you and I swear even though we weren’t prepared
Maybe this was meant to be this is what you meant to me
I won’t forget the memories
I won’t forget the memories
Rest in peace yeah