Chapter 20

Man tell me what am I living for?
Tell me what it means, means to die
Do my purpose and my dreams collide
Or will I be unsatisfied with myself when I leave this life?
It’s only Chapter 20 tryna keep dreams alive
I’m on the fence and homie I could fall on either side
Careless 'cause I can’t tell which Is the greener Side
The phenes' alive I mean it when I read my rhymes
You listen and that’s the only time I let you read my mind
The reason why I’m so straightforward is because life’s a bitch
And she don’t care about your penis size
Man she’ll ride you til' you break down with nothing to lose
Tell you that you ain’t shit then start fucking your crew
She watching your moves
And that’s all cool until you pull up at your cousin house
And see that bitch is fucking him too
Man, this is for the homies stuck In the loop
On the way to work before the sun rising
Like its something to do
Need you to prosper
Need you to understand there’s a lot more
To life than just working and making it through the week
But shit I know the struggle I know it’s uncool to be
Chasing your dream while your fam is relying on you to eat
Wishing they knew the feeling you get when you chew a beat
Man, sometimes I feel like the music’s pursuing me
It’s true indeed
And I would never say I’ve changed
But it’s hard for old friends to understand the newer me
And you probably wouldn’t understand my life
And sometimes man I can’t stand my life
Homie, am I right?
As a man I write
The vivid Images in the mind of a Islander
Born In 97' these are the thoughts that I’ve piled up
Ever since a youngin' when I was wilder
Back of the class acting irrational
Having to hold me back in after school
Hot temper wish it was milder
Can’t recall how many times mama was dialed up
And that was 'til I got older and got my style up
Had a bit of knowledge
Street smart slash book smart
I probably shoulda went and applied for college
But how many people we pay homage to got their honours?
So tell me what it means, means to die
And if my purpose and my dreams collide
Then will I finally be satisfied with living a life
Lavished, putting five karats in my babygirl ear
Like Big before he died
Or will I be pressured by all the lies
Will I be traumatized if I leave my boys behind
And they calling my phone
Knowing I can’t get back to them cause the touring life
Is something I’ve been working for All my life
And if I’m a baller like every rapper I wanna be like
Then will I be more than right
To be thanking gormer Life
Will I be haunted if I had looked in my daughter eyes
And I saw that five karats is something she saw was normal like
I’ll be sitting there like she ain’t know that’s not normal Life
Thinking I fucked up if she ever saw all the fights
Me and her mama about to have over all them nights
I pray she understand that God’s power is more than life
So why do I want it?
Is it because I was Demoralized?
Seeing these other kids getting things that I wanted like
Couldn’t afford the life that I wanted but i’ll get it for sure
Always knew that I’d be rich I just never knew what for
And while I whip this Honda Accord
I see you laughing at my dreams
Cause you ain’t happy with yours
I’m tryna get up on the cover of Forbes
That’s why from now I’m cutting all ties
With people who ain’t act in support
So tell me what it means to die?
Do my purpose and my dreams collide?
Or will I fail at my aspirations of where I wanna be
Hitting targets
I’m nearly at four minutes feeling like im only getting started
Team strong who overlapping us
Probably nobody with the music we stacking up
It’s only chapter 20
You rappers ain’t catching up
And I spit the realest shit to wrap it up
And that’s what’s up, motherfucker