Catching Up

Trouble on my mind
I can’t lie I hate the
Way that you remind me
That loss is major
I would say
If god could save us
I would hate to
Block your way up
I decide
If I stay or make it home
I survive
But I’d hate to make it known
I feel like it might
Take a day or 2
Shake the Quaalude
Stay to make it thru
To another
Hate that they allude
To my uppers
On and off again
Wait for death to come
Off kolonopin
On to resting up
On to resting up
Through my mind you run
Now my heart is catching up
Trouble on my mind
I can’t lie I hate the
Way that you remind me
That loss is major
I would say
If god could save us
I would hate to
Block your way up
Trouble on my mind
I can’t lie I hate the
Way that I survive
It’s a lot to take up
Separate from
Degradation
Escalate
Self preservation