Hate

All my time spent chasing distractions
Please, don’t leave me alone with my thoughts
Desperate for human interactions
Deflect the pain of life, the pain of loss
I get wistful and tearful when I stop in my tracks
I get angry and ashamed when I remember who I am
My lonely behaviour undignified
I get scared of the nothing when I look inside
The world seems too vicious when I think of conditions
Incapable of inhibitions
Myself included with grounded expectations
What use is reason when we lose it with our patience?
I get wistful and tearful when I stop in my tracks
I get angry and ashamed when I remember who I am
My lonely behaviour undignified
I get scared of the nothing when I look inside
Oh, my rarer find
I don’t like where my thoughts go where there’s just me on my mind
Oh, my troubled cure
I’ve also thought of the feeling of choking on your own sick before