crumbling / suicide note

I wish that I could find another way
But I am not alive, already dead
So long before I
I wish you knew how I feel
About you, about you
Don’t think it’s sad to
Sad to
Suffer I’m glad to
Glad to
I’m crumbling down
I am still stuck in this town
Life of a letdown
Letdown
Jumping to get down
Get down
And I need some help
Ask for it, no chance in hell
Laugh at it, after we fell
But I can’t get up again
Do some more to sober up
Five-cards wants to blow me up
Falling is the best of fun
The last look at this gun
Every room in my house is a fucking mess
I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast
Maybe that’s what it takes to wake up my friends
Hope you know what you were missing then
I wanna write a note that makes my friends cry
Write a note that makes my friends cry
Really makes me wanna take my life
Take my life
«Hey, umm… it’s me and I don’t really know how to say this, but…
I don’t think umm… I’m gonna be coming home tonight and I just wanted to let
you know it’s not your fault and I love you a lot. Uhh… you know I’ve been
thinking about it—this for a while and I… settled on it y’know so I love you.
If it’s truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
If it’s truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
Truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
, tonight, tonight, tonight
If it’s truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
If it’s truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
If it’s truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
Tonight, tonight, tonight