Trying

Oh, I can’t get out
Invisible handcuffs locked on me
Been praying for my period all week
And relief that I just can’t see
I question everything
My focus, my figure, my sexuality
And how much it matters or why it would mean anything
I can’t keep it together
I’ve been better
I’ve been thinking about it every night
I’m trying, I am
I’m trying, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying
Why am I?
I can’t get out
There’s no flawless education, just a stupid degree
The feeling of growing so far from myself
I can’t reach, I can’t reach, I can’t reach
So I brush it off, 'cause I want it bad
And there’s no dusting up
When you want like that
Here’s a ship, there’s a wreck
Better keep yourself in check 'cause
All these loaded questions gonna eat you alive
I’m trying, I am
I’m trying, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying
Why am I?
If it counts for anything
I didn’t want to
I’m just looking for clarity
To help me get through
If you’re set in your ways
What can I do?
Ease up so that I can break it down for you
Can’t feed a beast you
Leave unleashed
It’ll come right back to you
I’m trying
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying
Why am I?
Why am I?
Why, why?
Why am I?