Anxiety

On the surface, everything’s just fine
But nervous doesn’t describe what’s going on behind these eyes
It’s just too easy to fake a smile
But you got my heartbeat on repeat
Going 'bout a hundred thousand miles
My mind’s racing, but I can never out run you
You’re two steps ahead while I’m tripping over my shoes
No matter how hard I try, you will never leave
Yeah, yeah, I H-A-T-E Y-O-U
And all the stupid things you do
I give in so easily
You get the best of me
You get the best of me
I wish I could just let you go
But the truth is, you are all I’ve ever known
You’re an infection, a medicine just numbs my brain
I’m doing anything and everything to feel normal again
What’s normal again?
'Cause my mind’s racing, but I can never out run you
You’re two steps ahead while I’m tripping over my shoes
My mind’s racing, but I can never out run you
Playing games with me that I will always lose, ooh
No matter how hard I try, you will never leave
Hey, yeah, I H-A-T-E Y-O-U
And all the stupid things you do
I give in so easily (You get, you get the best of me)
You get the best of me, no
You get the best of me, of me, of me
It’s crazy, my thoughts start racing
And my mind’s erasing everything I knew
It’s just pills and therapy bills
Just to keep me away from you
And it works for a little while, bullshit smiles
But I’m just walking through the motions
Either that, or losing track of my emotions
4 AM panic attacks, taking red eyes back home
I feel by myself, but with you, I’m never alone
Damn
No matter how hard I try, you will never leave