Operating From The Ditch

It’s sick, operating from this ditch
It boggles my mind we still have to put up with this shit
We have been dragging for years
And if words mean nothing then why are we talking
So many times I wish I had the strength to turn around walking
It’s beyond an injustice, the way that we are trampled and it still blows my
mind
Just save your sleepless nights of abuse and binges for when I need you the
most so I can regret my faith in you
Now my heart is pounding at the sight of your stupid glass eyes
Can’t see straight, can’t walk straight, can’t live straight
You just spit in my face knowing that I’ll be there tomorrow to drag you along
You’re a liar, and you are taking years off my life
Jaw clinched tight even long after you are out of sight
Prove me wrong, if prove me wrong then I would gladly forget all about this song
But somehow you continue to surprise me
How long can I sustain this?
Dysfunction leaving me brainless
Scornful derision is the message your sending
A throat full of curses is inevitably pending
You can’t hide shit from me, that’s ridiculous
Try to play it off you can’t be serious
I wish there was a way out
Got to find a way to cure what’s inside of you
I am having dreams at night of my hands violently wrapped around your neck,
and I want to return the pain
It’s hard to believe where I have placed my priorities in life knowing who you
really are
I am just glad that I’m not you, and I will never be like you
I got my guard up for another let down, and sadly enough it prefaces your name
And here we are again
You make it so hard to just be proud of my self, sooner than later I might just
be somebody else
Take a look at yourself