Death and Serenity

I want to end this, I drew my line in the sand
And now I define who I am as a man
It’s time to let to, it’s time to let go
I want to go back to the days
Where life wasn’t dull or gray
Where I was vibrant, and alive and, had a world that I thought I could thrive in
«I wonder every day if you’d be proud of me. And I wonder how differently life
would have been. I wonder if you thought of me as frequently as I do you.
In the back of my head I always knew I’d want to talk to you later on in life.
The possibility you wouldn’t be there when that day came never even crossed my
mind.»
I had everything I needed, but time goes by too fast
I was never built to last, never fucking built to last
We’re all spit on and beaten
And life is just a grievance
This is my finale, my ending, I’ve been breaking more connections than I’ve
been mending
«It's been about a week since I learned you died. You know, it sucks,
because not only do I not know a damn thing about you, but I didn’t even get
to go to the funeral. I know you don’t feel the same since you never wanted me
in your life, but I love you, Dad, and I wish you were still here.
I’ll see you soon.»
Anxiety fills my chest, and lead fills my lungs
I’ll put this gun to my mouth and let the last song be sung