Bitterromantic Pt. 1

My antidepressant hides in a Smith & Wesson
I don’t know how to make anxiety lessen
I’ve learned my lesson
Don’t ever love first
Or have your psyche messed with
Intimacy lives in a hearse
Love is dead
It only exists in your head
And hangs onto your neck until your face turns red
Until it rips your mind into shreds
Now I’m just old news
A drunk and in love fool
Now I’m old news, a fucking fool
But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
Drowning in static and feedback from the mic
That’s been stapled to my mouth my whole life
I need you; I love you, is this all in my head?
Microphone check
No one can hear me I guess
Check
I wrote these words in blood to make sure that they meant enough
Can you hear me?
Can anyone hear me?
So say goodbye to chivalry
And all that meant the world to me
Hang me high in this anxiety
And everything I’ll never be
Everything that I’ve been feeling
Left me dangling from the ceiling
I’m only broken and misused
I don’t see what’s so unappealing