What If I?

I don’t wanna leave you but I feel like
The stars are saying I should
On and off and I really can’t remember
The last time that this felt good
Even if I ever found the courage to go
You would pull me right back
I’m hooked on this American feeling
That I deserve more than I have
A dream and a curse in the worst way
The bleeding heart of my selfish thinking, but…
Ooh what if I…
Ooh what if I…
Ooh what if I need you when you’re out of reasons
To believe I was ever worth your time
Have mercy, leave me with a last dance
Give me one more song
You know I keep telling my friends something different
Til' all the good reasons are gone
There’s no stone left that I haven’t turned
I can only see one door open, but…
Ooh what if I…
Ooh what if I…
Ooh what if I need you when you’re out of reasons
To believe I was ever worth your time
You make the lightest of rains, feel like a hurricane
The best of what you are, is a fishing line dollar of a star
I keep pushing down your roads
Because the truth is that I don’t know
What I am without you, oh
I can’t stand outside the show
Maybe that’s just the way it goes
Ooh what if I…
Ooh what if I…
Ooh what if I need you when you’re out of reasons
To believe I was ever worth your time