does it really matter?

I don’t think you understand
I feel lonely in the crowd
And I don’t know why I’m like this
But I rather be just by myself
Yeah, I made excuses just to get away
I tell you maybe, when I know I’ll stay
I make plans with myself, 'cause I’m scared to go out
And all of my friends, they don’t call me no more
I guess they are tired of me saying no
All I need was space and time
But does it really matter
If I’m staying up 'til four drinking on my own?
Does it really matter
If I’m sleeping all alone?
Waiting for the sun to rise again
Baby, I’m falling down again
I don’t think you know me well
I don’t think I know myself
Smile when the camera is out
But honestly, that’s someone else
And every party, oh, it’s way too loud
I hate all these bottles that I can’t pronounce
I don’t know what I want, but I know that it probably isn’t this
I guess I should learn, but I never do
'Cause I always end up back in my room
'Cause what I needed was just space and time
But does it really matter
If I’m staying up 'til four drinking on my own?
Does it really matter
If I’m sleeping all alone?
Waiting for the sun to rise again
Baby, I’m falling down again