Eight Months

Let’s play a game
Where you guess how I’ve been
And you get no hints from me
No tragedy
Only pictures of my hips
In the dark i’m not very smart
I’ve been falling over a lot
I think i’m falling apart
I need you
I need you more than i want to
I want to wait for springtime
Been sick for so long
It feels like a lifetime
I don’t like my body
I know you like my body
Sometimes I see my body
And it scares me
In the coming months
I will do my best
Not to waste away
So when i step on scales
Like they’re broken glass
It’s to make a change
I need you
I need you more than you need me
It’s freeing to admit that
I admit that i hate myself more
When you’re not here