Half Alive

I try to keep it solid at least half the time
But I’m out my mind and time is slowly passing by
And some nights i wish that i would fall and have to die
Cause either way I’m really only half alive
I lit a fire cause I had to see
Walkin thru the smoke, couldn’t breathe
How I’m coasting up over most, close to the ghost when I wrote every quote,
Jesus goes to his knees
They was listening to god but they didn’t know
How they really know he got it if he livin low?
I was there on college avenue and I did the most
Broke but it was anything goes for a lil dough
Ken Griffey, ken griffey max 1
We was jiggilatin at the arsenal
Colored conscience never black and white but I be half alive and got a heart of
gold
The root is strong inside my garden, hoe
I see ya seeds but how’s ya harvest tho?
All of my people go hussle, in some shape of form, almost up but we started low
We was dead but now we living again
I come to the garden while living in sin
I’m out for dead presidents, get dividends
Was in a rut and now I’m in it again. Fuck
Here I go. soul shift from high to another low
Freeze up, now the current flow, never ease up, I be in the water getting lost
in the undertow
Hate needing money but I love the dough
Cash out on new kicks so I can run it tho
Flash back, college ave, couple months ago
I was in harmony, told my baby I would never go
And away I went
Nothing solid bout the days I spent.
After that, cause in the aftermath
There wasn’t nothing in my soul and that’s a fact, but I try to keep it solid.
I try to keep it solid at least half the time
But I’m out my mind and time is slowly passing by
And some nights i wish that i would fall and have to die
Cause either way I’m really only half alive