Always Leaving

Thought about it all day
Been meaning to tell you
It’s too late to explain
Too soon to make sense of it
All I can offer is this belated goodbye
Just imagine if you’re always coming and going
Purposely misplaced and not sure where home is
But always get homesick
In the cradle of night
See, if your heart had a backdoor I’d sure slip away
Cowardly, but it’s my go-to
Seems like every so-long needs some profound thing to say
But honest, there’s nothing to tell you
Except
I hope you enjoy this mess
And what you love leads you to success
And when you think of me now and then
Forgive your friend who’s always leaving
Sometimes I think distance is perfect
Cause it prolongs our romanticized state in all this
And sometimes I really wanna call you but for some reason shy away
Because I know you’d be glad, and that makes me sad
So I’ll show up on some cloudy day and we’ll make a million pancakes
And we’ll talk like its been no time at all, still young, dumb, impressionable
And you’ve finished Innocents Abroad
And you set me up with your extra cot
And I keep my stories to a minimum, cause you’re sick of them
But I bet you would have loved the highlands of Guatemala
Eurail Belgium to Spain, backpacking Yosemite
Utila on a full moon dive…
Our falling out was no one’s but mine
See, there’s this ache in my chest and it won’t go away
Doctor says I pulled a muscle
But I think it’s some residue from what I couldn’t
So I carved in the wall of a hostel
I wrote
I hope you enjoy this mess
And what you love leads you to success
And when you think of me now and then
Forgive your friend who’s always leaving
And maybe I’m not cut out for all this
Maybe I want more than life can give
But I hope you know it pains me to no end
To be your friend
Who’s always leaving