Dead or Alive

I just felt alive for the first time
Only cause I’m fucked out of my mind
Lately don’t know what happiness feels like
Don’t know if I’ma right all my wrongs right
I just felt alive for the first time
They all tell me I’m just gonna be fine
Biding all my time for the sun shine
But every time I look, it’s too bright
Waking up in a place where I don’t feel love
I run away from my issues, I don’t give a fuck
I had enough of my brain, throw me in the mud
My feelings go uncut, I keep my eyes shut
I lost my patience, my conscience on vacation
I’ll go away for long, until they’re waiting
I never felt like this without relation
Maybe for better or worse, I won’t just say it
I see them laughing, I know they’ve been attacking
Pop another pill so I feel like I’ve been fasting
Maybe it’s my mind telling me that I’m not lasting
Or maybe it’s just love making sure that I’m just crashing
Your facial expression cures my depression
I’ve been falling out waiting on someone’s reception
I don’t see redemption, take me as an exception
My thoughts creep up in my skin, just like an infection
I just felt alive for the first time
Only cause I’m fucked out of my mind
Lately don’t know what happiness feels like
Don’t know if I’ma right all my wrongs right
I just felt alive for the first time
They all tell me I’m just gonna be fine
Biding all my time for the sun shine
But every time I look, it’s too bright