Special

While you were on some different shit
Ignoring everything that I told you I needed
Didn’t want to leave but I got too much pride to ever beg and use and plead and
Sittin' in your presence lookin' at you
Longing for you but we do no speaking
Reminiscing on us kissing seeing distance
Going over several reasons
Why the fuck I want you so bad? (Why the fuck?)
Why the fuck you make me so mad? (Why the fuck?)
Why the fuck you make me so sad? (Why the fuck?)
Why did God make you so bad? (Why the fuck?)
Why the fuck you cut me when you talk? (Why the fuck?)
Why the fuck I love to watch you walk? (Why the fuck?)
Why the fuck you always down to leave? (Why the fuck?)
Why the fuck you always in my dreams? (Why the fuck?)
How the fuck you get it in them jeans? (How the fuck?)
How the fuck you always got me hurting? (How the fuck?)
I’ll give you the world upon a platter
You return the love with disservice
Take the hits and ice them with a smile
Moving off the faith it gets better
Part of me thinking that it won’t
But I can’t help but want you more than ever
The mailbox is full and cannot accept any messages at this time, goodbye
Ain’t nothing greater than the feeling you get waking up to someone that you
think loves you back
Ain’t no worse feeling than cherishing and giving your all to someone only to
see they don’t appreciate you, life…
I just wanted your attention (I just wanted your attention)
I just wanted your affection (I just wanted your affection)
I just wanted to feel special (I just wanted to feel special)
Cuz my love is not a rental (Cuz my love is not a rental)
I just wanted you to focus (I just wanted you to focus)
Doing things I hope you notice (Doing things I hope you notice)
I just hope you didn’t blow this (I just hope you didn’t blow this)
I just hope you didn’t blow this (I just hope you didn’t blow this)
Aye, I got this aching in my chest (Yeah Yeah)
That comes back when we argue (Yeah Yeah)
The sharpest pains that pierce the heart like a harpoon
I watch as we decay (Watch as we decay)
I watch the scenes replay (Watch the scenes replay)
I pray we gon' be good (Pray we gon' be good)
I wait through the delay (Let's get it)
I tried to be everything you wanted
And all you did was laugh at me
And tell me I’m not what you want
And you don’t think you’ll come back to me
That’s so ugly (So ugly)
To think it’d come from a masterpiece
I chase you so much that my physique is that of an athlete
And I’m still running cuz you still running
It’s like this shit is all a game to you
Balled fist till my palm was bleeding when I think another nigga laid with you
What a fucking idiot, I’m fucking serious
You always giving me ya ass to kiss
Yet I love you through all the pains
When the fuck did I become a masochist?
I don’t understand (I don’t understand)
You make me wanna scream till I sit here voiceless
I got a taste of how fine you are but saving it is the sweetest poison
The soul of a man (Soul of a man)
Without a thing to hide (Without a thing to hide)
There’s hope when it’s time (Hope when it’s time)
That I’ll want you to be mine (Want you to be mine)
We’re sorry, the number you have dialed is not in service at this time
Being in love is damn near an addiction
With time spent, emotion grows
And that person becomes a vital part of your peace and happiness
And they say that distance makes the heart grow fonder cuz you miss them
But it also drives you fucking crazy…
I just wanted your attention (I just wanted your attention)
I just wanted your affection (I just wanted your affection)
I just wanted to feel special (I just wanted to feel special)
Cuz my love is not a rental (Cuz my love is not a rental)
I just wanted you to focus (I just wanted you to focus)
Doing things I hope you notice (Doing things I hope you notice)
I just hope you didn’t blow this (I just hope you didn’t blow this)
I just hope you didn’t blow this (I just hope you didn’t blow this)
While I sit and hope that I ain’t blow it
We both tripped and don’t I know it
You would tell me just what you need
And I would slack when it’s time to show it
I would tell you stop being cold
If you really love me then fucking show it
You and I make the perfect team
We just goin' through a whole bit of growing
We bump heads and I make atonement
Now I want us only making moments
So many stories up inside our book
Be a shame if it made a closing
In a different zone trynna get it together
Bad thoughts for my head here
Still trynna call and say I love you
But it’s falling on deaf ears…