Dukkha

Devoured by light
Succumbed to darkness
I lie awake at night
And sleep all day
With my eyes open
Drawing nails into my veins
To end the pain of desolation
Vision blurred, a feeling of relief induced
Deep extasis caused by physically inflicted sensation
Drawing nails into my veins
To end the pain of desolation
Captivated by void
I pass through lifelessness
Illusions merge
With the gloom of my reality
Like a parasite
Anxiety manifests itself
Within my physicality
Muscular tensions
Like electric shocks in my brain
In this dark abyss of pain
I decompose
Staring through the mist
I ask myself, is there a way out?
Samsara, Samsara, Samsara
Suffering, suffering, suffering
I am a burden to myself
Condemned to nothingness
I’m slowly peeling off my skin
Inch by inch
Hung up on a rusty hook
I see the reflection of my weakness
Ugliness inside and out
Tortured existence
I wish to be dead