Unforgiven

Sent you a Christmas card the other day
And I admit I kept it short, I don’t know what to say
I haven’t seen you, haven’t spoke, and I don’t know you
To the point I even question why I wrote you
And I honestly
Maybe I was just too young to understand
But 15 years and you don’t call, you just a grudgeful man
And I don’t really know what dad did
But what the fuck it have to do with your grandkids?
I even tried to talk to my cousins
They didn’t answer either, I’m just talking discussion
I’m not saying you gotta be in my life
But just a little explanation, man you owe me that right?
I still don’t get it and I never will
You getting older, bout to find out how forever feels
Not trying to say it’s okay
But a grudge will be the only thing you’ll take to your grave
It’s hard to forgive, it’s hard to forget
Can’t even remember just who started this shit
The longer it last, the harder it gets
To say that I’m sorry
Yeah it’s hard to admit
It’s hard to forgive, it’s hard to forget
Can’t even remember now who started this shit
The longer it last, the harder it gets
To say that I’m sorry
I watched a man who tried to kill me celebrate in court
His lawyer put his hand out like what are you waiting for
High five it
Had an ex ask me if I knew what cutting was, she showed me
«You better never ever ever leave me», is what she told me
Another friend of mine, looked up to him when we were kids
He started smoking crack and then he broke into my crib
It wasn’t personal, that had nothin' to do with me
That’s the thing that ties it all together, see none of it did
So I forgive you
Because all the pain you try to blame on me was you protecting yourself (from
yourself)
I forgive you
It couldn’t been anybody, in fact you probably looked at me and saw yourself
So I forgive you
Because my worst day ever, is every fuckin day of ya life
So I forgive you
Because I have a feelin' that I had nothing to do with how’d you have lived
your life