Father

Will I ever feel at home
Even when I feel alone?
Will I ever understand
That there’s so much to understand?
Will I ever get to see
If you were reaching out for me?
Will I ever find a way
To live above my guilt and shame?
Am I too emotional
To hold any good thing close?
Am I at a loss for words
Holding on to what only hurts?
When I said I was lost in all the lies and the city lights
You said, «Look up at the stars and you’ll know I’m always there»
But I, I’m caught up in my mind and the thoughts inside
Screaming, «Father, I can’t see the stars from here»
How will I ever learn to love?
And will I ever be enough
Without you here?
Will there ever be a day
Where I don’t have to feel this way?
Will I ever be at peace
Knowing that you will never leave?
Will I ever learn to change
Or will these feelings stay the same?
And will I ever let it go?
There’s still so much that I don’t know
Am I too emotional
To hold any good thing close?
Am I at a loss for words
Holding onto what only hurts?
When I said I was lost in all the lies and the city lights
You said, «Look up at the stars and you’ll know I’m always there»
But I, I’m caught up in my mind and the thoughts inside
Screaming, «Father, I can’t see the stars from here»
How will I ever learn to love?
And will I ever be enough
Without You here, oh?
Without You here, oh?
Will I ever find a love?
And will it ever be enough?
And will my moment ever come
Where you will love who I’ve become?
And will you ever be amazed
Of who I’ve grown to be today?
Or will I ever live to say
That it’s so good to see your face?
When I said I was lost in all the lies and the city lights
You said-
But I, I’m caught up in my mind and the thoughts inside
Screaming, «Father, I can’t see the stars from here»
How will I ever learn to love?
And will I ever be enough
Without you here, oh?