Even Tho Its Hard

I swear
I’m just sitting back thinkin' about everything in life
No matter how good I done by people
It never failed, man
You know I’m human
I always come back around, totally the opposite
But I’m good though
Lotta things been in my head
Days I barely leave my bed
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it’s hard
So much pain, I cannot rest
All this time it got me stressed
I don’t win, I do my best
Even though it’s hard
Lately, I been dealing with pain, I’d rather fight
Like why the fuck I’m stuck in the night searching for light
Damn, my niggas off in the sky, without a flight
All the things they left me to fear, it wasn’t right
Hella niggas still in the cell, send 'em a kite
Me, I’d rather hit 'em with flicks, I hate to write
Turn my back on many of mine? I ain’t the type
That’s why the couple of 'em who left, I hold 'em tight
I feel I need a different direction, no distillation
but we fuck 'em, that’s restoration
Some people that I love tryna stop me from elevation
Right or wrong, I still keep it solid, no hesitation
Me, I’m in the same location where nothin' promised
Where they say you ain’t designed to see thirty, just bein' honest
Just hope they got to see when it happened
Lotta things been in my head
Days I barely leave my bed
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it’s hard
So much pain, I cannot rest
All this time it got me stressed
I don’t win, I do my best
Even though it’s hard
They told me keep my faith while I’m losing, and it’ll pass
Praying
Hard to see one day you’ll be first when always last
I swear it’s like your life only relevant when it’s cash
Be careful who you give dedication,
Just know you at somebody disposable like you was trash
No with me controlling these motions, I only spaz
Too many niggas singin' the blues right over jazz
speakin' different, most of live it, a different tune
Not knowing things, we made it, our mama, we would be doomed
My children ask me «Will it get better?» I tell 'em «Soon»
I’m equal to the greats but I’m guessing it wouldn’t
Even if I never get noticed, I couldn’t trip
I know, keep on planning, I couldn’t slip
Anyone who listen, I gotta dip
Regardless, tell 'em «Look at me now», I got 'em Clip
Lotta things been in my head (My head)
Days I barely leave my bed (My bed)
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it’s hard (It's hard)
So much pain, I cannot rest (I can’t rest)
All this time it got me stressed (Stressed)
I don’t win, I do my best (My best)
Even though it’s hard
Even
My bed
It’s so hard
I can’t rest
It’s stress
My best